Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Posted at 2:55 PM
I've been asking myself why I blog.
Do I blog with the sole intent to update people about what's going on in my life?

If that's the case, then I don't think I should blog for that purpose anymore.
Because I've learnt that if people want to get updates about me and my well-being or whatever it is that they want to find out, they should ask me, no?
What's technology for?
If you've lost your voice, you could still e-mail or sth.

I'm not lashing out at parties who do not call me up and ask me how I am. I swear I'm not. Im fact, I am revelling in my solitary.
Instead, I've just realised how really stupid I was and have been.
I update people. And then I get responses that are as indifferent as a useless rock.
Worse still, no responses at all. How much of an ego-boost it must have been for people like this rite?
People hankering after them. Wow.
So really, I should stop being stupid. I think the fact that some people just do not care at all, after all, has finally sunk in.
Took me some time, but hey, at least I got it.

So yeah. I don't know why I blog still.
Maybe it's for times like this when I just need a space for me to let out stupid feelings that overwhelm me. Be it serious-serious stuff or crazy fangirl outbursts.

Or maybe, I owe it to the friends who really care, and genuinely want updates about me. Hahaha. Perasan sey. But yeah, since I do not update them much, maybe this is the least I could do.

I think I've had enough. And I've had a rather comprehensive history of having had enough already. It was definitely excellent while it lasted. But now I'm taking the pictures off my wall.
So long. (: