Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Posted at 1:40 AM
I just finished Mei-chan no Shitsuji. ^^
The kiss at the end literally knocked my breath out laa...
Not because of anything really, but only because they were NOT supposed to kiss!!
It was pretty still.

Mizushima Hiro is always pretty anyway. The things we'd do to him and the rules we'd break if he was our butler, rite Yas??? HAHAHA. No but really, the kiss was nice. :)

You know, it'd be really quite wonderful if we all had ikemen butlers each to call our own.

After being made to understand and believe, sometimes viciously told, that I'm just not good enough, not funny enough, not slim enough, not beautiful enough, not smart enough, not hardworking enough, not thoughtful and considerate enough blah blah blah, my very own butler would serve as a rather fair compensation to all that negativity, don't you think?
Someone who knows absolutely everything there is to know about you. Someone who understands you as you are and still accepts you with his whole heart.

Says a bit, doesn't it? Someone who's willing to do anything for the sake of his lady. Without considering what benefit, if any at all, it might bring him.
Not that I want to be served and followed 24/7, but somehow, this gives me a leetle bit of faith that I might meet a gentleman one day. Doesn't really matter if I end up being with him or not. Just bumping into one would do, cos then it wouldn't be mere blind faith.

But then again, even though the ladies and their butlers always seem to complement each other in every other situation, there were times when they were rather dependent on their butlers. Which I find very scary.
It is nice, warm, fuzzy, sweet to have someone you know you could always depend on and turn to. Your driving force in life. Your motivation to go on. Your crying shoulder. Your reason to live. Your rock when challenges come by and you know you can't take them on all by yourself.

But. I haven't lived long enough to say a lot of things. But I have lived long enough to know that people can just up and leave.

So what happens, then? What if your butler runs away form you one day?
Even if you were strong and independent before, but he came along and told you that it's okay to depend on him. So you softened. And you depended.
And then he goes missing?

So, in short, no butlers for me. But who am I kidding rite? Personal butlers for ladies only happen in mangas, or dramas adapted from mangas. So snap back to reality, and here I am, blogging my thoughts out. On my sister's new lappy, just to try out her keys. It's quite nice la.