Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Posted at 11:29 PM
Why do I feel like I badly want certain people out of my life?
Not because I detest their very presence.
But because by them being near and in my sight, it reminds me of things.
Things I most definitely would not want to be reminded of.

even though there's love
even though there are ties that would not be broken so easily.

but i still want to say fuck off to them.

whyyy. i feel like such a bitch. [so don't tell me, i already know]

i've become increasingly numb to being by myself all the time.
soo much that i crave silence and solitude every time i'm with company.

i don't even realise how tactless i've become.
recently, a friend pointed out to me how blatantly i was faking my enthusiasm, wait no, there wasn't ANY enthusiasm, while i was talking to another friend.
great.

all that i hate, i'm becoming. way to go.

you tore down the fence that took years to build
thanks for nothing, darling.
you just about messed me up. :)