Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Posted at 1:21 AM
Did I just cause some unnecessary unease in someone else's life?
Fuck, if I did.
All the better if I was insignificant enough to not have caused tt. Seriously.
(Disclaimer: I swear there are no sarcastic insinuations in this post.)
I really mean this.

Argh. I think I sld not try to be nice. I sld never try to let people I love that I care because it always comes out wrong. Always does. So what was I thinking? What gave me the audacity to think that maybe, this time, it won't come out wrong?

I surprised myself. Because I realised that I felt. I emoted. And I'm wondering when it was, exactly, that I reverted back to feeling. I know I stopped feeling some time ago. I just didn't know that I have to started to feel all over again. I cared.

Pls don't tell me I'm feeling too much. This is how I am. As much as I try to avoid this, I always end up feeling.

And I'm really sorry if my feeling has caused anyone any distress. I really am.
Pls accept my sincerest apologies from the bottom of my heart.
And pls also know that the times when I was trying to reach out and let loved ones know that I care, it was never intended to mean anything other than that. That, I can promise.

So yes, I'm sorry.

And this is the perfect song for tonight, I guess.

Leave Out All The Rest - Linkin Park
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that i've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what i made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that i've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

Alritey. Pray for me pls, that the ulcer on my tongue will heal soon. It hurts and irritates.
K, bye.

P.S. Drew Carey advises: Play the 2 word/line game with your wife without telling her that you're playing it.

Heh.