I am tired from thinking about problems that are not mine.

I am tired from going to KK and SGH and back home cos of my mother's surgery.

I am tired from cooking for my family everyday and doing the whole house's laundry every other day.

I am so tired from cleaning up everyone's mess. In all possible senses.

Because, guess what? I DO have my own life. I DO have responsibilities as a student, right now. Because, guess what? I am not the household's replacement housewife.

Sounds horribly petty. But the world just seems so unfair when I think about how everyone else gets to go to sleep after it all. And still, I have early days filled with just doing work, work, and more work. And after that, I am still left awake trying to complete assignments, despite a killer of a headache. Speaking of which, I am getting major headaches every single night. It's not funny.

I can't even go out, cos then, who's going to cook and clean and take care of mummy and all that.

At the end of the day, this is all my responsibility as a daughter. So I should just stfu.

But, speaking of assignments, why can't my lecturer just be like all other lecturers and come down to campus to have physical lectures and tutorials? And not try to kill us all with massive e-learning assignments that are just never-ending. Seriously, and only letting us know on a Thursday, something that needs to be in by Monday. I mean, it's called e-learning week for a reason. And what is with the survey!! OMG!

Well, that's it. How ironic is it that I am writing this post because I couldn't possibly tell anyone about this. Be it because of the content or just circumstances. And yet, here I am, writing this for the whole world to see.