I have always thought that I would be one of the last persons to say this, but today, I honestly feel tired of living. I am not tired of MY life, but I am tired of *this* life.

It horribly sucks to be facing problems that seem to have no feasible solution. It sucks to have to sit by and watch but not being able to do anything to make the fucked up situations any better.

It certainly does not help to be around people who refuse to understand, people who are selfish, people who are so narrowed in thinking. People who act childish when they are absolutely not supposed to be. And people who are just ignorant, or those who run away.

But most of all, I am so fucking tired of being the one who knows things. I'm sick of being the listening ear. I DO NOT want to know any more, selfish as it sounds.

Why must I be the one? Because I would just keep quiet and listen? But the others would do the same too, you know? Why me. Why only me? Why protect everyone else?

Right now, I know I am not strong enough for all this shit. Really not. And I have never felt more vulnerable than I am feeling now. God, help me. Please.